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Love
I will not write anything today except to make you relevant at this page.
I was never in a mood to send kiran to USA. There are so many reasons to it. One is , Sanjeev Dad is already too rich that he simply hides his money and wants to give that to his elder son only. Sanjeev is very immature to the extent he does not know that he has a wife and status of wife is always autonomous not complimentary or supplementary or at clashing angles with the parents. If parents are stupids it does not mean that you let your wife face the music of their non sense.
and Kiran : my pencil says darling I need to think before writing of her. I think this single line is sufficient to make any bastard understand the heights of intellect she possesses of.
USA is not a solution now a days. People infact are not aware of the nuances. I will not explain further as it will be taken as a bloody political explanation.
Now as usual I am lonely stupid : you are too busy : so I dont expect that you can afford to come to me. I am planing to go to my village to be relevant , at least for some days.
Love
Today I will tel you something too scientific. I have generally talked of the difficult boring and nonsense content of Sciences if we opt to study one.
The very basic question arises why ?
I have talked of monotony. This state of mind generally arises by lack of plausible solution to mismatch with the environment. My website ricksajay is full of romance and sciences put together.
our brain has a special bio feed back mechanism which regulate the energy quotient of ours. I am NOT talking of diabetes. NOR I am talking of energy cycles of bio unit. Neither I am talking of any psychology or psychiatric aspects.
What I mean to say : Scientists have not understood their colleague Charles Darwin. I have explained too much of it ( photocopies are available with scientists : I need not give any proof , you can ask any layman he also knows that all photocopies are available with them.).
Richard Georg Strauss and many other prominent persona who worked on creating and developing software computing sciences they all suffered from monotony that triggered them to create what is simply not understood by not even one bio logist on earth.
Love
Sometimes I do ask myself who I am to you. I am hardly a loveable person. I may not be even consistent with your basic psyche. Nor I am of any use to you. I do know there are hell of variety of love songs on record then where is anything different if I write love to you.
Last when I was coming back to my flat I put stay for a while on a road where kiran used to ferry me for some mundane works. I always put my stay at the car itself and Sanjeev and Kiran went to the market for some thing to fetch. My heart says : you are an absolute lonely entity and when there is a chance to become less lonely you deliberately chose to remain more lonely with choosing of your chance decisions.
I keep quiet. I can not tell my heart. What I know my heart can never know.
I am a scientific infinite reality and my heart is love infinity that twin giant s never see eye to eye.
Love
I think I have never written a humorous letter to you. Kiran and Anu both are too humorous but I have not been able to imbibe their this technique. Anu mom is also too humorous. She has studied in Panjab University. She was in Hindi Department and I was in Kashyap Hall . One day I went to her girls hostel No.1 she was too too happy to receive me. I remember her happy moments till day. But I could not imbibe her instincts too nor I could learn hindi . Kiran is such a genius Hindi shall remember even after thousands of years.One day I was at Anu house at Sirsa. A person close to them was advising them frequently but I was silent listener. Probably I could not imbibe this habit of direction less speech too. Manu brother of Anu is too humorous at his heart but his Dad feels he is clumsy too. I have not been able to imbibe his habits too.
Some times my heart asks me why the hell you are so inefficient at your nerves. I quietly observe the Israel monkeys in and around my office. They are too dangerous. Sometimes they occupy whole of the corridors stairs to such an extent that it looks like as if they have come to break the monotony of the office environment.
but my heart asks another question too
when you shall come !!
I still keep my quiet and my calm nerves annoys my heart to such an extent that it says its better it could have flied and went to either a place where some one lives who can afford to understand it a bit.
but my silence never breaks.
Love
I have often wondered why the narration is dejective that tv channels have become synonym with stink. I have no taste for movies for the same reason. My a very few known ones sometimes did ask this aspect ; I generally say I love company only. Its true company is the only reality quotient with us but obligatory dependence makes one very difficult heart to have a meaning of oneself being around. I know I have talked of monotony. This is one reason to that effect. I know marriage institution has been totally rejected by my powers and this decision is often being challenged in my live environs and on channels too. I have clearly written no body can dictate anything what so ever it may be.
I have seen people showing off their babies whilst I have totally rejected this concept and Mother Teresa was a psychiatric person to the absolute level.
Its a total misnomer that a woman is never complete without being a mother. Its an absolute hypocritical that got inculcated in human brains through the concept of perception internalization actualization existentialisation and then psychiatric cum physiological metamorphosis of our neurons environments which is just a nano part of the largest ever possible level of genopsis which I wrote about earlier.
your not rushing to come to meet me too is a part of the ibid science,
love
It has been a rough weather with me I remember and look back at me myself. A deep loveable heart always faced the dubious peoples around. I hardly remember a moment when I was bestowed with a favour by the environment either on personal life or official life. I have literally lost the track of what happiness actually means.My heart is true and I am a manufactured piece to that extent.
I have even lost the track of lets weep for a while sometime and forget the non sense.
I really dont know
why I love you
Love
I was talking of monotony.
Anu has given me a shirt. Its too good. If you happen to be with me you can feel the wavelength of love. I generally miss her but as usual she is not available on her contact number. Her Dad number ofcourse is working. I really dont know what should I talk to her Dad. I want to talk to anu but she is too busy like you are somewhere at your worldly possessions. I possess Anu in that way you can not match me . I feel I have a little extra to you.
That eventful day I was roaming like a lost genius with no point of focus. I wished anu could have been with me. The world would have changed may be for a few hrs. Last time she and her brother were accompanied by my so desolate heart. I knew at that time anu was not but alpha anu. I have removed all bloody alpha beta gama and Gama rays too around anu. Now she is my anu only. You can ask her if not convinced.
The way to my village is as usual much known to me but one thing is that I dont know myself. I did asked the Acachia tree how are you so absorbed and happening at your live world. It did smile but its reply was in some language that I could not make out . I have seen this tree being so mercilessly cut over the yrs of memory that sometimes I feel why they are so docile that their voice is not heard by any one.
My heart interrupts me too often but I have to look other sides. May be I am not that intelligent to know my hearts brainy waves.
