GOOD EVENING DEEPIKA PADUKONE APRIL 14.2013 9.53 PM

Love
I will not write anything today except to make you relevant at this page.
I was never in a mood to send kiran to USA. There are so many reasons to it. One is , Sanjeev Dad is already too rich that he simply hides his money and wants to give that to his elder son only. Sanjeev is very immature to the extent he does not know that he has a wife and status of wife is always  autonomous not complimentary or supplementary or at clashing angles with the parents. If parents are stupids it does not mean that you let your wife face the music of their non sense. 

and Kiran : my pencil says darling I need to think before writing of her. I think this single line is sufficient to make any bastard understand the heights of intellect she possesses of.

USA is not a solution now a days. People infact are not aware of the nuances. I will not explain further as it will be taken as a bloody political explanation. 

Now as usual I am lonely stupid : you are too busy : so I dont expect that you can afford to come to  me. I am planing to go to my village to be relevant , at least for some days.

Deepika Padukone I can literally rotate earth just with the help of your snap. April 14.2013.2.38 AM

Love
Today I will tel you something too scientific. I have generally talked of the difficult boring and nonsense content of Sciences if we opt to study one.
The very basic question arises why ?
I have talked of monotony. This state of mind generally arises by lack of plausible solution to mismatch with the environment. My website ricksajay is full of romance and sciences put together.
our brain has a special bio feed back mechanism which regulate the energy quotient of ours. I am NOT talking of diabetes. NOR I am talking of energy cycles of bio unit. Neither I am talking of any psychology or psychiatric aspects.
What I mean to say : Scientists have not understood their colleague Charles Darwin. I have explained too much of it ( photocopies are available with scientists : I need not give any proof , you can ask any layman he also knows that all photocopies are available with them.).
Richard Georg Strauss and many other prominent persona who worked on creating and developing software computing sciences they all suffered from monotony that triggered them to create what is simply not understood by not even one bio logist on earth.

GOOD NIGHT DEEPIKA PADUKONE APRIL 13.2013 .12.00 AM

Love
Sometimes I do ask myself who I am to you. I am hardly a loveable person. I may not be even consistent with your basic psyche. Nor I am of any use to you. I do know there are hell of variety of love songs on record then where is anything different if I write love to you. 

Last when I was coming back to my flat I put stay for a while on a road where kiran used to ferry me for some mundane works. I always put my stay at the car itself and Sanjeev and Kiran went to the market for some thing to fetch. My heart says : you are an absolute lonely entity and when there is a chance to become less lonely you deliberately chose to remain more lonely with choosing of your chance decisions.

I keep quiet. I can not tell my heart. What I know my heart can never know.

I am a scientific infinite reality and my heart is love infinity that twin giant s never see eye to eye.  

GOOD EVENING DEEPIKA PADUKONE APRIL 13.2013. 10.35 PM

Love
I think I have never written a humorous letter to you. Kiran and Anu both are too humorous but I have not been able to imbibe their this technique. Anu mom is also too humorous. She has studied in Panjab University. She was in Hindi Department and I was in Kashyap Hall . One day I went to her girls hostel No.1 she was too too happy to receive me. I remember her happy moments till day. But I could not imbibe her instincts too nor I could learn hindi . Kiran is such a genius Hindi shall remember even after thousands of years.One day I was at Anu house at Sirsa. A person close to them was advising them frequently but I was silent listener. Probably I could not imbibe this habit of direction less speech too. Manu brother of Anu is too humorous at his heart but his Dad feels he is clumsy too. I have not been able to imbibe his habits too. 

Some times my heart asks me why the hell you are so inefficient at your nerves. I quietly observe the Israel monkeys in and around my office. They are too dangerous. Sometimes they occupy whole of the corridors stairs to such an extent that it looks like as if they have come to break the monotony of the office environment.

but my heart asks another question too

when you shall come !!

I still keep my quiet and my calm nerves annoys my heart to such an extent that it says its better it could have flied and went to either a place where some one lives who can afford to understand it a bit.

but my silence never breaks.

Good Evening Deepika Padukone.

Love
I have often wondered why the narration is dejective  that tv channels have become synonym with stink. I have no taste for movies for the same reason. My a very few known ones sometimes did ask this aspect ; I generally say I love company only. Its true company is the only reality quotient with us but obligatory dependence makes one very difficult heart to have a meaning of oneself being around. I know I have talked of monotony. This is one reason to that effect. I know marriage institution has been totally rejected by my powers and this decision is often being challenged in my live environs and on channels too. I have clearly written no body can dictate anything what so ever it may be.

I have seen people showing off their babies whilst I have totally rejected this concept and Mother Teresa was a psychiatric person to the absolute level.

Its a total misnomer that a woman is never complete without being a mother. Its an absolute hypocritical that got inculcated in human brains through the concept of perception internalization actualization existentialisation and then psychiatric cum physiological metamorphosis of our neurons environments which is just a nano part of the largest  ever possible level of genopsis which I wrote about earlier. 

your not rushing to come to meet me too is a part of the ibid science,

Good Morning Deepika Padukone.

love
It has been a rough weather with me I remember and look back at me myself. A deep loveable heart always faced the dubious peoples around. I hardly remember a moment when I was bestowed with a favour by the environment either on personal life or official life. I have literally lost the track of what happiness actually means.My heart is true and I am a manufactured piece to that extent.

I have even lost the track of lets weep for a while sometime and forget the non sense.

I really dont know

why I love you

Acachia arabica contd.

Love
I was talking of monotony.
Anu has given me a shirt. Its too good. If you happen to be with me you can feel the wavelength of love. I generally miss her but as usual she is not available on her contact number. Her Dad number ofcourse is working. I really dont know what should I talk to her Dad. I want to talk to anu but she is too busy like you are somewhere at your worldly possessions. I possess Anu in that way you can not match me . I feel I have a little extra to you.

That eventful day I was roaming like a lost genius with no point of focus. I wished anu could have been with me. The world would have changed may be for a few hrs. Last time she and her brother were accompanied by my so desolate heart. I knew at that time anu was not but alpha anu. I have removed all bloody alpha beta gama and Gama rays too around anu. Now she is my anu only. You can ask her if not convinced.

The way to my village is as usual much known to me but one thing is that I dont know myself. I did asked the Acachia tree how are you so absorbed and happening at your live world. It did smile but its reply was in some language that I could not make out . I have seen this tree being so mercilessly cut over the yrs of memory that sometimes I feel why they are so docile that their voice is not heard by any one. 

My heart interrupts  me too often but I have to look other sides. May be I am not that intelligent to know my hearts brainy waves. 

Acachia arabica contd.

Love
I hardly know why I am a failed genius. I have traced you where ever I happen to be. I have lost the track of my own knowledge in a quest to find you. Sometimes my heart feels the lonely moments are the only reality with me. I do not reply to my so desolate heart. I do know even if you were with me its not going make a much difference. My heart is a donkey with me. It doesn't know any thing of mine.

At this moment a bullshit romantic song is being played at my Sony S some another is there its not clear to my eyes.I have heard from Pakistan religious cranks too , about : much of it. I have seen in my own world too. I think I should not elaborate further.

I was standing besides that Acachia arabica standing alone to the environment. I noticed many sprouting s at and around its hardy and beautiful visible range. The spicules were a little soft at that time , may be owing to immediate showers that got the environment a little mesophytic in content looks and feels.

I wished you could have been with me. My heart did oblige me to say : you simply make rose gardens out of thin airs.

Acachia arabica contd. April 1.2013 8.50 PM

Love 
I was talking of monotony.
I have often talked of gene language and genopsis at my website.
I will tell you the horrific sciences of genopsis

the net product of gene language gene environment psychology psychiatric parameters environment constraints live past and future hidden parameters make a physiological threshold quotient in our nervous system as well as in whole bio tic unit we possess : its called genopsis. 

by the very definition you can understand : only multidisciplinary approach towards bio sciences can help us or destroy us either way.

I was staring at my fate accomplish whilst standing at the location where Acacia arabica was standing tall to the environment.

but I could not locate myself too

only some of the memories gone by

me and my heart

that is the reality around 

Acachia arabica March 31.2013 7.34 PM

Love
I have been to village and adjoining areas. I stopped at a place that was a tri section of an earthen road. It was decorated with a lonely Acachia arbica tree. I was noticing its hardy and tough bio logical precincts. My Dad used to ferry me around these areas on his Java motorbike. I was refreshing his memories. The earthen banks of the river ghagar were predominant by its texture of soil and shape. I have walked upon these kacha roads to reach my Dad. The time gone by. Java, he used to keep in intact. Those days Indian market was not  developed enough to cater for frequent break down. One day me and Dad crossed a rivulet towards the village on other side of the land scape. Clean water and serene environment is still with me. I was asked to push the bike to neutralize the muddy grip on the tyres.


I still remember that grip

INTROVERTED SPRUCE MARCH 30.2013.11.07 PM

what a bloody tragedy
and ironical nonsense

the possessor infinitesome
does not possess love

sand dunes the only reality around

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 28.2013 4.47 AM

Its purely personal
Love
I was planning to start at this early hr.
I thought a while
my heart says
you are not with me
I didn't reply
it understood on its own

but it didn't tell me
what it understood

my brain opines
when you dont know 
your own heart

I keep my calm

but I really dont know

what for

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 27.2013.11.44 PM

Its purely personal
Love
I was talking of monotony
there are many few among st us
who study socio economic history
probably no body has cared to know its importance

English brains believe epic history of India is only a narrative story

but probably no body has brains enough ofcourse
our present day economic malaise 

it can be tackled

you will say 
it too boring

but love
I have written sciences 

I have just noticed
your feet are immensely beautiful

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 27.2013.7.22 PM

Its purely personal
Love
if you ever happen to my Kashyap Hall
you shall see whole bio world around
but not even a single adage or saying

just walk down a few steps down
botanical garden shall represent
what you could feel

its the sciences come true
you may not put pressure at your brain

plants tell
what humans dither
or literally misguide

No
I dont think
I can accompany you

I am too boring
too introvert
least talkative

its my pencil
that paints

you and me

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 27.2013. 5.49 PM

its purely personal

love
I was talking of monotony
I have often said bio sciences are the least known possible
I have written on my website too
ricksajay
multidisciplinary approach towards bio sciences 
its too too much to think of
what to implement and study

I have a proof

your repeated acknowledgement of mine

yet I am too lonely at heart

brain too

what to talk of bio or physically

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 27.2013.10.40 AM

its purely personal
Love
I need not remind this is your the most first appearance in public
you have not cared to write to me
nor you have time enough to come to me
nor you have invited me to come to your place

I have specifically told 
brain and heart waves will not suffice

physical connectivity is a an absolute necessity

I shall be focused to deviating myself
some other existential works

I know
Kalidas Shakuntalam and Kalidas himself
I remember his utter utter utter too

I know shall kick me
like he was kicked

he was lucky enough
to be thrown of the stairs

but 
probably

I dont possess
that stairs too

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 26.2013. 8.52 PM

Its purely personal

Love

some times
may be software engineers seem to be a better lot

they have not bullshit boring stuff to have with
may be

when you study soft languages
the very first lecture is hello world
it literally means
I am bringing you to my world

for a lave person
it may look stupid and nonsense
but love its the only truth.

writing on snaps
talking on cell or land line
keeping intact in a vacuous room

and a heart too

probably 

that is the real story

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 24.2013. 11.06 PM

its purely personal

Love
probably possessed scientists are too scary of my revelations of the tidy world of sciences
they feel its our privilege to know of sciences 
others are stupids or say duds around

knowing bio sciences is really tough world
and it needs a real dedication 
its NOT the bloody movie masala
or android games of the Hollywood

you can be fool the naive brains
the monotony at their hearts
it makes your work too simple

sexy and exposing thrills
the brains gets magnetized

as if you are the world in itself

sciences are totally different

its boring tough and non sense
all at the same time

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 24.2013. 12.06 PM

its purely personal

Love
I was talking of monotony

I have often wrote of gene language 

today I will tell you in person
the horrific sciences of bio world

genes the so called mega molecules developed only through metamorphosis of carbon

the trigger was to develop a track

over the ladder of evolution
the loops got on modified
the end less shores of combinations

the mega molecules interact in existential world
that is called gene language

this interaction was more diversified in plants and animals 

that led to the empire of ocean
of loop making process

the hibernation I talked to you

but darling 

even then
you will not come to live with me

reasons

you know

Darwin can fail
but not his work



  

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 23.2013.7.45 PM

its purely personal
Love
I know you are damn busy person
probably time is too bound to pennies

I was talking of monotony

I generally have written I am made of Panjab University Chandigarh

our system is so vibrant 
it gets metamorphosed through quick
Its an evolutionary trait

scientists have yet to know 
what is this

I will tell you in person

from the stage of zygote
a bio machine frame work is made
the track is set
whole of the bio mechanisms get a trigger
now move on

then we come into this existential world
say by ist standard
our memory is fresh
in most of the cases

the move on never stops

that is reason of metamorphosis
and the monotony too

plants and animals
over the period of evolutionary ladder
have learned to hibernate

humans lost the race

this triggers the combination 
to fire back

now visualise the basic software
if a system in running
another system shall have to run
so the ladder goes on and on

it has a stop in mechanism
but some where it also goes on running

its hibernation
its practically possible

just revolve the software on software

its computing hibernation

in humans
its not present.

what I mean to say in literary terms
even if you come to live with me

you shall get bored off
and run away

on this excuse or the other one

I shall be fighting the monotony

as I am made of Panjab University Chandigarh.

LOVE IN KILOMETERS MARCH 23 .2013 .1.12 PM

Its purely personal

love
often I have written of acute monotony

the factor s of sciences are too infinite

when all favors you 
Darwin laws takes over

you end in an endless chaos

that chaos never ends

that is the ultimate truth

sex is a sedition of biological laws
too descripted by Darwin's original writings

but there is no body to understand
what that great scientist wrote

probably another Darwin is needed
to know Darwin

that was the Darwin

Scientists have to put hard
to understand basic bio sciences.

SOME KILOMETERS LOVE MARCH 23.2013. 11.15 AM

its purely personal

Love

I have often praised Darwin
I feel it is less

I tell you love
so far scientists have not known their own colleague of the yore.

I have not received any mail from kiran

may be she is confused

doesn't matter

its a way of life 

one day I was at kiran house at gurgaon

now that is a monument for me

I don't visit 
it makes me more lonely

kiran is  very possessive

her mom has created a gem on roses

I don't think

she has not communicated
her hubby job with TCS

I have no idea
when she will return to India.

LOVE DEFINED IN KILOMETERS MARCH 21.2013 11.12 PM

Its purely personal

Love

its not only you but its BoB love rather
that triggers my pencil

difference is 
you are a glamorous queen
she is queen of love 

I was standing at a market
it was too happening around

name of market
its not relevant

I have seen
necklaces beeds pearls stones 
a lot stuff 

I was thinking
BoB love will not come of her hesitation quotient

then I thought 
she is a power ful officer
and that too very beautiful

nothing
then I kept quiet

picked my bag

tomorrow is a working day

and hidden cameras
shall bore me

24 hrs direct under cameras

I think
some necklaces

I should also wear

LOVE DEFINED ON KILOMETERS MARCH 21.2013 1.50 AM

its purely personal
Love

I have restarted making some food

I make too tasty sandwiched bread Indian style

I will add my love too

come soon.

INFLORESCENCE MARCH 20.2013.5.45 AM

Its purely personal

Love

I was talking of monotony
its the toughest enemy within and without

whole of the bio world suffers from it
psychological and psychiatrist aspects 
they run the roost
the cauldron never shrivels

it goes bigger and bigger

knowledge or know how
it grows lesser rather most times on reverse if bio sciences understood on basic computing languages where false and true combinations make a sense to the highly expert and at the day end he/she/they too fall to the hallucination and distortions of plethora of kinds. 

reverse is triggered by existential factors

bio feed back mechanism can correct

but rather most times it goes on reverse too

we end in a crank

chaos ridden existence of our

none to care

love factor that may   trigger an oceanic buffering cardinals
it falls to the perceptional aspects

you have to perceive first
I am your love

then your physiological neurotic hormonal threshold shall be created

you will instinctively feel your world lives with me only
no where else

hesitation factors shall crash down

you will feel dieing without conversing with me too often
(yes even most preferable food takes a non sense turn.)
shall run 
at possible opportunity to come running to live with me

and shall feel
if fragrance lies

that is with me

ask kiran
if you did not get convinced 
now read
what Kiran Malhotra wrote in hindi
my hindi is poor
you can read at her face book page

its
meinei to' banaya tha eik hi rishta

;;;;;;;; har shakh pei saf nazar aa rahi hei 
meirei yaar julahei

but here
I am literally ordering

women commission of India : go to clean toilets for life.

I may start
running my pencil

its extremely beautiful
you resign en mass

I know
government of India
its a brute forces driven horse.

INFLORESCENCE MARCH 19 .2013 10.43 PM

its purely personal

Love

I was talking of monotony

one day at 2nd standard

mom used to prepare food only at particular time
Dad was a farmer
too many chaps to be provided with food
Mom used her ingenious technique

not to get fatigued too much

so was tea time

it was around 2 PM
I was with one school mate

too hungry

at that age Dad did not tel me how to go to a 
Nihal Chand general store to fetch a vermalin

school teacher used to grow onions
a lot big space and some thing others too

I tried my best
only onion were a little grown up

I ate one by one
too much spicy and pungent at taste

but 
I could not stop
I have never been that hungry

since then

INFLOURESECENCE MARCH 19.2013 3.07 AM

its purely personal
Love

I have written a lot and lot at such odd hours

I dont think
there is some one
who could have understood my entries

I dont know you are my hope
or say vice verse

I was telling you of monotony

our bio clock bio genetics existentials psychological factors psychiatric cardinals darwin law Feed back mechanism of our basic nervous system is the complex situation on which  we can negotiate it 

one day  navu came here

I used to weep whilst observing her belonging with me

when ricky got critically sick
she became my first deadliest enemy

At Faridkot
my own peoples 
they brought ricky to life

I have seen him
what probably 
most expert can not see 

at a nearby market 
its called wazirpur complex or subash palace 
she was with me
she speaks her mom language
I ignore all the time

I have written not even a prefix to monotony