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"shipra vashisht re"
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inflourescence..6.12.09

Sunday, December 6, 2009

INFLORESCENCE..6.12.09

This day core meeting
Armed Service Core as we call it
I was busy to feel the adrenalin factor of the bestowed feathery gathering

every one with his her own capabilities

search is limitless
or is the questionnaire

I did miss you
may be you have the reply

I know our thoughts come and go
with or without a consequence
far less a relativity to the environs

but these people whether on the whims of events or otherwise

they keep on their relevance intact
may be by the de-facto preparedness at heart and brain together

but does it fit in the present environs
I negotiate every day
eves ask me a lot
my reply is

keeping calm all the way
just observing
let the clock ticks its own way

where is the relevance
I often equate
with the mundanes around

probably they are as haughty as your Himalayan hair

I keep on surfing

source: shipra.v

Posted by ajay ahuja at 7:26 AM

chemotherapy

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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

CHEMOTHERAPY..01.12.09
TODAY probably the toughest working day
I was expected to do conduct an apex body of Senior hierarchy
I noted the possible points

but my heart is too nervous
how to create the official notes out of the stuff uttered so lengthy

I know I can and would make the success to come
but the anxiety runs the roost
till I pick my pen tomorrow

so is the moments every day and every moment
the work being the relevance of the heart and nerves together

I do miss the warmth and ocean inc support
probably this luxury has bypassed

the cruelty of Nature

survival is the fittest
or the other way around

so it goes with the ' waves' of thoughts with me

I sometimes realise
its with every body
hot seats are too hot to handle
enigmatic too
the uncertain factors
taxing matter and results too

Way back
I listened calm
the heart spoke at length
the broken wavelengths with vengeance

you spoke with liberal verbatum
but I couldn't make out
whether you're standing
at arms length

I did wonder
whether such equations are that prevalent

probably yes

I did recall your absence
after another seconds
probably your ghost
it shadows me every where

may be I do realise
you never leave me either

its your Aura and its nanonic presence
at my psyche

may be
that makes the toughest
more challenge able

And

I accept the challenge
for another innings

may be
its love
or love of the work
or
love of your being
around me

source: shipra.v
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when indian stnd relations become obsolete

some days are special: they live with you: more live than the live world one can think of: interactive world becomes a too small equation in front of their aura: after a long long time when i resumed my quest of the outer world: i happened to drive thro' lanes of bbps rohini delhi. changed scenario surrounded by huge complexes and in particular court complexes (newly built): but i was looking for my sweat hearts. They are busy at their higher echelons of knowledge and me: too busy to find them around their bbps. : i used to love the airs enveloping the scene and my heart went a bit too high to see their names printed on the walls of the school.

i told my little friend: look they are somewhere else as of now: it retorted: damn fool: u have broken my priceless memories with stupid nuance.

i used to drive with them for their very special moments and that has become special moments of my heart: i wonder whether time really moves: or it remains intact to the heart and the hearts of heart: i ask my stupid sceintific brain: it says it's already been explained with quantum physics: my heart annoyed at the very concept says: you a damn fool: will never see the sense and does this bullshit science come into: now i realise too far to: and have a deep look at the environs of bbps to refresh my past to make a part my present: i speed my car: but my heart remained there:

i roam with their thoughts with hi fi volumes of stereo: to have frequency modulated to traverse the distances by which they are aparted from me.

i look at the gifts and the little things to have a live movie of my hearts.

and hope

some day they find time: to close the distances

source inspire: kan, navu, bbps rohini delhi

U IN MY UNIV..Contd

it's 1.16 AM with me. should be 12 at noon with you. i was sleeping very well. Suddenly my univ came to me in my live room. She looked like you and her beauty is beyond discription. I hope by the time my inning gets switched off, i might have wrote a lot to say a word of her magnetic aura. I have seen a hindi movie ' mohebtei' staring Aishwarya Rai a ghost love against a student played by sharukh khan. Well! my univ love approaches it but it shoots off like a rocket afterwords as it involves complex sciences of today and tomorrow in particular quantum physics combined with psychiatry on the frame of genecology & gene-language.

you might have read that Nobel Prize for medicine has been awarded for the work of gene targeting and its live impact at the next generation ( it's mice here).

my thougths are a horrible combine of all + literary wizards.

my love used to have a cup of coffee at the student Centre, punjab univ chd, india: but i always loved to have a cup of tea. I used to order for a full set of 4 cups. She had a big laugh at my nerves and often teased: is that the quotient of your hunger for caffiene> i always said NO ITS YOUR LOVE!! She could not resist her laugh for too long and it often attracted the penetrating glare by the crowd around.

i have spent very serene moments with her at botany gardens, under the fucus tree during a heavy down pour and particularly when she was in her 'salwar kameez'-it's an attire generally liked by punjabi indians.

i often wonder whether i am happy at my univ or at present: my job: i love to live in my univ and work in new delhi in a high fi' office> it's a privilege for: in india.

I do wonder at tender nerves which do often feel alone and have sad tone at the inner half> but whether it's fait accompalish> i struggle to find a reply

( to be continued)
source inspire: neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra, pu chd india

DESIRE

THIS is what i find
when my heart looks for you

kalidas was mad in love
so he wrote 'abhigyanshakuntalam'

but by this time
modern sciences have told
what's not expected of them

love has its own secret nerves
so is my heart

it often says
do something to have word with my love

i showed it all the beauties
to whom i could afford to

but it says
look my stupid chap
she is not here

try some extra efforts

frustrated as i was
with its goad
i got my car speakers changed

now i put horrible volume
to seduce it for the moments

psychiatry speaks a lot of voices and volumes
and if combine of genecology and gene-laguage makes it presence felt
the world changes
as it looks hitherto

i'm trying hard
to find a workable euqation
and hope
you'll come live
with my new technique

source inspire: mallika, shipra, pu chd