INSECURE HEART

many a times
when my sleep
brings a horror movie
live
i get up in between

my soul searches you
in my live environs

i know
you're busy somewhere
in the fast track world

a pause for a moment
and ponder
why i feel so insecure

my heart opines
your presence
may solve
many a unwritten queries

but i know
it's only an excuse
to find
a glimpse of you

i open my e-album
and see
if there's some change
has crept into

my insane nerves
only stop at you
and find
a change at heart

i wonder
is this insecurity
lies with me
all the time

i find no sane reply
and scan your thoughts

thro' my bullshit dumpy head
it stores a hell lot

but i like your presence
seen it thro'
and feel
is it my insecure heart

may be
but my brain wonders why?

the why?s of your being with me
and the why?s of mine

may it find some sane entity
i look for an excuse

and my insecure heart
puts another
hell of queries

it purturbs my soul

but has a positive tone
it brings you
in my environs
at the least

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