when indian stnd relations become obsolete

some days are special: they live with you: more live than the live world one can think of: interactive world becomes a too small equation in front of their aura: after a long long time when i resumed my quest of the outer world: i happened to drive thro' lanes of bbps rohini delhi. changed scenario surrounded by huge complexes and in particular court complexes (newly built): but i was looking for my sweat hearts. They are busy at their higher echelons of knowledge and me: too busy to find them around their bbps. : i used to love the airs enveloping the scene and my heart went a bit too high to see their names printed on the walls of the school.

i told my little friend: look they are somewhere else as of now: it retorted: damn fool: u have broken my priceless memories with stupid nuance.

i used to drive with them for their very special moments and that has become special moments of my heart: i wonder whether time really moves: or it remains intact to the heart and the hearts of heart: i ask my stupid sceintific brain: it says it's already been explained with quantum physics: my heart annoyed at the very concept says: you a damn fool: will never see the sense and does this bullshit science come into: now i realise too far to: and have a deep look at the environs of bbps to refresh my past to make a part my present: i speed my car: but my heart remained there:

i roam with their thoughts with hi fi volumes of stereo: to have frequency modulated to traverse the distances by which they are aparted from me.

i look at the gifts and the little things to have a live movie of my hearts.

and hope

some day they find time: to close the distances

source inspire: kan, navu, bbps rohini delhi

U IN MY UNIV..Contd

it's 1.16 AM with me. should be 12 at noon with you. i was sleeping very well. Suddenly my univ came to me in my live room. She looked like you and her beauty is beyond discription. I hope by the time my inning gets switched off, i might have wrote a lot to say a word of her magnetic aura. I have seen a hindi movie ' mohebtei' staring Aishwarya Rai a ghost love against a student played by sharukh khan. Well! my univ love approaches it but it shoots off like a rocket afterwords as it involves complex sciences of today and tomorrow in particular quantum physics combined with psychiatry on the frame of genecology & gene-language.

you might have read that Nobel Prize for medicine has been awarded for the work of gene targeting and its live impact at the next generation ( it's mice here).

my thougths are a horrible combine of all + literary wizards.

my love used to have a cup of coffee at the student Centre, punjab univ chd, india: but i always loved to have a cup of tea. I used to order for a full set of 4 cups. She had a big laugh at my nerves and often teased: is that the quotient of your hunger for caffiene> i always said NO ITS YOUR LOVE!! She could not resist her laugh for too long and it often attracted the penetrating glare by the crowd around.

i have spent very serene moments with her at botany gardens, under the fucus tree during a heavy down pour and particularly when she was in her 'salwar kameez'-it's an attire generally liked by punjabi indians.

i often wonder whether i am happy at my univ or at present: my job: i love to live in my univ and work in new delhi in a high fi' office> it's a privilege for: in india.

I do wonder at tender nerves which do often feel alone and have sad tone at the inner half> but whether it's fait accompalish> i struggle to find a reply

( to be continued)
source inspire: neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra, pu chd india

DESIRE

THIS is what i find
when my heart looks for you

kalidas was mad in love
so he wrote 'abhigyanshakuntalam'

but by this time
modern sciences have told
what's not expected of them

love has its own secret nerves
so is my heart

it often says
do something to have word with my love

i showed it all the beauties
to whom i could afford to

but it says
look my stupid chap
she is not here

try some extra efforts

frustrated as i was
with its goad
i got my car speakers changed

now i put horrible volume
to seduce it for the moments

psychiatry speaks a lot of voices and volumes
and if combine of genecology and gene-laguage makes it presence felt
the world changes
as it looks hitherto

i'm trying hard
to find a workable euqation
and hope
you'll come live
with my new technique

source inspire: mallika, shipra, pu chd

ABUNDANCE

my heart looks you
thro' the nanons of universe

i know
you're deep sleepy
at the moment

me
insomniac
my nerves

too unsatiated

mismatch
my love

satiated
your thoughts

i've known
thro' my books

love is blind

and i negotiate

the light
thro'
your love

source inspire: neha c'.s space

GOOD MORNING MY LOVE

i come every day
to say you
it's to come off
your sleep

break your shakles
go off your boundaries

but i find
your slippery nerves
it get you nowhere

escape instinct
runs the roost

i'm running fast
your time
it'll leave you
far behind

bereft of more chances

beg to say
it's good
in court of law

Nature has its own courts
it provokes the tender
to excel
find and fight
lest you get swallowed down
by the big fish

my music
plays with your truant soul
and
you waste every thin
at your
deaf and dumb heart

when you realize
heart may have gone
obsolete

Nature works overnight
what makes you sleep
and that too
forever
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, indian political scenario. self-destructive muslim world.

ENDEAVOUR

i locate you at my heart
but it's too slippery
i need it for my ground realities
it cares for little
and goes straight to you

i ask
look my little friend
she is too busy

and it retorts back
i have a horrible brain
it knows how to
magnetise

i ask
have you known it that granted
it opines
it's none of your business

me! look around
and see
how far
you've percolated down
to my psyche

and whether
it's another
ephemeral, so to say

i try hard
steer clear of the environs

peep deep into
where i happen to go
and
thrive

my heart
it remains
aloft
and says
when you the hell!
will realise: she is with in me
and you wate your energy
with your damn inquisitve nerves
source inspire: neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra, cao office mod new delhi, pu chd.

GHOST LOVE

views may be millions or billions
where's the need to calculate to zillions

but truth
even a bubble suffices
to a say a lot

love is proffessional
so are the words
thus goes the love

i visit my univ
see the beauty around

my heart says
it's more live
to your world around

my brain ponders
at the intellect of my heart
and negotiate the combine
of beauty,heart,intellect and the unknown

i brush aside
the whole hell
go to my dreams
as if
they are more real
to the bullshit world around

source inspire: susane,mallika,shipra,kirori mall college du delhi,pu chd india

8th oct

i'll come
its my way of love
but some time it's too diff

often i feel too monotonous
like a busy bee
but you see
i've special hearts
to converse
and the feel of the feel

i pulsate too harsh
its my way
but i love tender
it gives the feel of strength
and tender love of love
Nature is beautifull at her baunty
and i'm only its part
like you
like your 8th oct

i know
it's special day

i have had a taste of your popcorns
you may have grown with new relevance
but my days stick to your popcorns

chd is what a name
for the beauties
to flourish
and wonder
at their creation

i'll retire every eve
but will come again
to remember
to love
your happy birth day

written to falicitate my navu darlin at her birth day, 8th oct: sourc inspire: pu chd

INTOLERANT SOUL

i see my horizon
shading at the eve hrs
morning is too sick

i gather
as clock ticks further

sit quite
at my horizon

why and how
i get a black hole
to negotiate
at the other moment

at my teens
i wondered
and the spirit remains
but hows and whys
it has got into my psyche

i know the flip side
and exuses abound
to come off
as if
a new moment has come

start of starts
some times i feel
my horizon galvanising

but where is my niche
i ask
i negotiate
at every other moment

is it so
i accept
and forget
to have another chance

i see
my horizon
at the other end
of my thoughts

VIBRATIONS

Vibrations of my little friend
it reside somewhere with in you
you come live

its whisper
wakes me up

i say
love!
its not the time
tomorrow
its hectic

it says
do you feel
i'm too spare

no Love!
i play safe

it vibrates too hard
i've forgotten
the places

you* & me
roamed
with a hidden desire
to find
each of us

i happen to see all
and the volcano of your magnetic rhythms
it erupts
with veangeance

i know
now its your time
source inspire: mallika, shipra, pu chd india

PARANOID HEART

WHEN there is a prospective source of happiness
my heart pulsate in reverse
and see the lava boiling on itself

i try to assuage its burn feeling
and instinctive nostalgic obsession

it 'culls' my soul

i remember
my sweat hearts around
and say
look
its time to feel at ease

but it sees
no sane views

i wonder
my lone movements
are they too privileged

it seems so
and i recall my inflorescence
and its impact on my psyche

may be
time
its horrible
in harshness

it spares to moments
to test you
at its whimsical way
source inspire:mallika,shipra,pu chd india,kan

BURNING SOUL

what you see may bring a part of it
what i get
and encounter
as the day and night push each other

i try
look my love!
its a part, the world around
and the whole is quite diff

it makes my soul
more horrible
and it errupts with
uneven anger

me a docile chap
with my own inhibitions
and limitations

wait for my love
to bring
something
it can cool the scenario
around

my brain wonders
if there is a water
which can cool
such a horrible
way of the things around

i still have a strong faith
in my love
in my strength
to get the burns
and come off
survival

this is how
i say to my soul

wait for a moment
she will bring
if not water
another volcano
the forces may
eventually
strike down
each other

my soul
looks around
and ponder
at my way of
explaining the things around

and my heart
it's simply a paranoid
but too accomodative

we trio
unite
for that moment
source inspiration:neha c'.s space, mallika sherawat, shipra.v, pu chd india

BUBBLES..CONTD

i often struggle
to find
is it possible
to come off
the sweat trap
of happiness

it often brings more 'lust'
and the lust brings de-facto
The great lows'!!

unable to find
the 'Einsteinien' theory
which can encampass
the whole scenario
which often changes
like a melting & flowing lava!

I get the heat stroke
right at my heart

hope for the elixir

is it that
the elixir
is the trap itself

i find no reply
but soul says
you have to do it!!

day and night
i struggle thro' the environs
and keep intact
my whole know-how!

as i go deep
i come with more shallows
of my thoughts
of my capabilities

and the realities around!!

i do wonder
is it the airy world
Nature is too contrained
to adapt for me

i vie
with a rejuvenated vengeance
at the glimpse of my Love!!

She vanishes in the thin layers
i struggle hard to keep a touch

and console
her absence
it will bring a new start

of her love
and hope
the mirage of reality
it'll combine
to bring
another shower of elixir

But soul
it becomes scary

it asks too often
is it possible
to rely upon
your new found elixir

i keep mum
and wait
till my Love!
brings me another solace!!!!!!!
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, mallika sherawat, shipra.v, pu chd india

INFLORESCENCE..CONTD

She has not promised me
rose gardens
i often talk to my love!
you're an exotic fairy love!
and
i'm a hardy
neuro-psychiatric love!
She laughs so absorbing
i forget my pains
and the gains too!
her abscence
it's a vacuum
but i've become used to!

i enjoy the beauties around
vainful may be consequences
but i've learned the process itself!
my heart often opines!
is'nt too mechanical
i accept
but forget, the other moment!

i know this is my inforescence!!

source inspriation : neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra.v, pu chd india