when indian stnd relations become obsolete

some days are special: they live with you: more live than the live world one can think of: interactive world becomes a too small equation in front of their aura: after a long long time when i resumed my quest of the outer world: i happened to drive thro' lanes of bbps rohini delhi. changed scenario surrounded by huge complexes and in particular court complexes (newly built): but i was looking for my sweat hearts. They are busy at their higher echelons of knowledge and me: too busy to find them around their bbps. : i used to love the airs enveloping the scene and my heart went a bit too high to see their names printed on the walls of the school.

i told my little friend: look they are somewhere else as of now: it retorted: damn fool: u have broken my priceless memories with stupid nuance.

i used to drive with them for their very special moments and that has become special moments of my heart: i wonder whether time really moves: or it remains intact to the heart and the hearts of heart: i ask my stupid sceintific brain: it says it's already been explained with quantum physics: my heart annoyed at the very concept says: you a damn fool: will never see the sense and does this bullshit science come into: now i realise too far to: and have a deep look at the environs of bbps to refresh my past to make a part my present: i speed my car: but my heart remained there:

i roam with their thoughts with hi fi volumes of stereo: to have frequency modulated to traverse the distances by which they are aparted from me.

i look at the gifts and the little things to have a live movie of my hearts.

and hope

some day they find time: to close the distances

source inspire: kan, navu, bbps rohini delhi

U IN MY UNIV..Contd

it's 1.16 AM with me. should be 12 at noon with you. i was sleeping very well. Suddenly my univ came to me in my live room. She looked like you and her beauty is beyond discription. I hope by the time my inning gets switched off, i might have wrote a lot to say a word of her magnetic aura. I have seen a hindi movie ' mohebtei' staring Aishwarya Rai a ghost love against a student played by sharukh khan. Well! my univ love approaches it but it shoots off like a rocket afterwords as it involves complex sciences of today and tomorrow in particular quantum physics combined with psychiatry on the frame of genecology & gene-language.

you might have read that Nobel Prize for medicine has been awarded for the work of gene targeting and its live impact at the next generation ( it's mice here).

my thougths are a horrible combine of all + literary wizards.

my love used to have a cup of coffee at the student Centre, punjab univ chd, india: but i always loved to have a cup of tea. I used to order for a full set of 4 cups. She had a big laugh at my nerves and often teased: is that the quotient of your hunger for caffiene> i always said NO ITS YOUR LOVE!! She could not resist her laugh for too long and it often attracted the penetrating glare by the crowd around.

i have spent very serene moments with her at botany gardens, under the fucus tree during a heavy down pour and particularly when she was in her 'salwar kameez'-it's an attire generally liked by punjabi indians.

i often wonder whether i am happy at my univ or at present: my job: i love to live in my univ and work in new delhi in a high fi' office> it's a privilege for: in india.

I do wonder at tender nerves which do often feel alone and have sad tone at the inner half> but whether it's fait accompalish> i struggle to find a reply

( to be continued)
source inspire: neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra, pu chd india

DESIRE

THIS is what i find
when my heart looks for you

kalidas was mad in love
so he wrote 'abhigyanshakuntalam'

but by this time
modern sciences have told
what's not expected of them

love has its own secret nerves
so is my heart

it often says
do something to have word with my love

i showed it all the beauties
to whom i could afford to

but it says
look my stupid chap
she is not here

try some extra efforts

frustrated as i was
with its goad
i got my car speakers changed

now i put horrible volume
to seduce it for the moments

psychiatry speaks a lot of voices and volumes
and if combine of genecology and gene-laguage makes it presence felt
the world changes
as it looks hitherto

i'm trying hard
to find a workable euqation
and hope
you'll come live
with my new technique

source inspire: mallika, shipra, pu chd

ABUNDANCE

my heart looks you
thro' the nanons of universe

i know
you're deep sleepy
at the moment

me
insomniac
my nerves

too unsatiated

mismatch
my love

satiated
your thoughts

i've known
thro' my books

love is blind

and i negotiate

the light
thro'
your love

source inspire: neha c'.s space

GOOD MORNING MY LOVE

i come every day
to say you
it's to come off
your sleep

break your shakles
go off your boundaries

but i find
your slippery nerves
it get you nowhere

escape instinct
runs the roost

i'm running fast
your time
it'll leave you
far behind

bereft of more chances

beg to say
it's good
in court of law

Nature has its own courts
it provokes the tender
to excel
find and fight
lest you get swallowed down
by the big fish

my music
plays with your truant soul
and
you waste every thin
at your
deaf and dumb heart

when you realize
heart may have gone
obsolete

Nature works overnight
what makes you sleep
and that too
forever
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, indian political scenario. self-destructive muslim world.

ENDEAVOUR

i locate you at my heart
but it's too slippery
i need it for my ground realities
it cares for little
and goes straight to you

i ask
look my little friend
she is too busy

and it retorts back
i have a horrible brain
it knows how to
magnetise

i ask
have you known it that granted
it opines
it's none of your business

me! look around
and see
how far
you've percolated down
to my psyche

and whether
it's another
ephemeral, so to say

i try hard
steer clear of the environs

peep deep into
where i happen to go
and
thrive

my heart
it remains
aloft
and says
when you the hell!
will realise: she is with in me
and you wate your energy
with your damn inquisitve nerves
source inspire: neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra, cao office mod new delhi, pu chd.

GHOST LOVE

views may be millions or billions
where's the need to calculate to zillions

but truth
even a bubble suffices
to a say a lot

love is proffessional
so are the words
thus goes the love

i visit my univ
see the beauty around

my heart says
it's more live
to your world around

my brain ponders
at the intellect of my heart
and negotiate the combine
of beauty,heart,intellect and the unknown

i brush aside
the whole hell
go to my dreams
as if
they are more real
to the bullshit world around

source inspire: susane,mallika,shipra,kirori mall college du delhi,pu chd india

8th oct

i'll come
its my way of love
but some time it's too diff

often i feel too monotonous
like a busy bee
but you see
i've special hearts
to converse
and the feel of the feel

i pulsate too harsh
its my way
but i love tender
it gives the feel of strength
and tender love of love
Nature is beautifull at her baunty
and i'm only its part
like you
like your 8th oct

i know
it's special day

i have had a taste of your popcorns
you may have grown with new relevance
but my days stick to your popcorns

chd is what a name
for the beauties
to flourish
and wonder
at their creation

i'll retire every eve
but will come again
to remember
to love
your happy birth day

written to falicitate my navu darlin at her birth day, 8th oct: sourc inspire: pu chd

INTOLERANT SOUL

i see my horizon
shading at the eve hrs
morning is too sick

i gather
as clock ticks further

sit quite
at my horizon

why and how
i get a black hole
to negotiate
at the other moment

at my teens
i wondered
and the spirit remains
but hows and whys
it has got into my psyche

i know the flip side
and exuses abound
to come off
as if
a new moment has come

start of starts
some times i feel
my horizon galvanising

but where is my niche
i ask
i negotiate
at every other moment

is it so
i accept
and forget
to have another chance

i see
my horizon
at the other end
of my thoughts

VIBRATIONS

Vibrations of my little friend
it reside somewhere with in you
you come live

its whisper
wakes me up

i say
love!
its not the time
tomorrow
its hectic

it says
do you feel
i'm too spare

no Love!
i play safe

it vibrates too hard
i've forgotten
the places

you* & me
roamed
with a hidden desire
to find
each of us

i happen to see all
and the volcano of your magnetic rhythms
it erupts
with veangeance

i know
now its your time
source inspire: mallika, shipra, pu chd india

PARANOID HEART

WHEN there is a prospective source of happiness
my heart pulsate in reverse
and see the lava boiling on itself

i try to assuage its burn feeling
and instinctive nostalgic obsession

it 'culls' my soul

i remember
my sweat hearts around
and say
look
its time to feel at ease

but it sees
no sane views

i wonder
my lone movements
are they too privileged

it seems so
and i recall my inflorescence
and its impact on my psyche

may be
time
its horrible
in harshness

it spares to moments
to test you
at its whimsical way
source inspire:mallika,shipra,pu chd india,kan

BURNING SOUL

what you see may bring a part of it
what i get
and encounter
as the day and night push each other

i try
look my love!
its a part, the world around
and the whole is quite diff

it makes my soul
more horrible
and it errupts with
uneven anger

me a docile chap
with my own inhibitions
and limitations

wait for my love
to bring
something
it can cool the scenario
around

my brain wonders
if there is a water
which can cool
such a horrible
way of the things around

i still have a strong faith
in my love
in my strength
to get the burns
and come off
survival

this is how
i say to my soul

wait for a moment
she will bring
if not water
another volcano
the forces may
eventually
strike down
each other

my soul
looks around
and ponder
at my way of
explaining the things around

and my heart
it's simply a paranoid
but too accomodative

we trio
unite
for that moment
source inspiration:neha c'.s space, mallika sherawat, shipra.v, pu chd india

BUBBLES..CONTD

i often struggle
to find
is it possible
to come off
the sweat trap
of happiness

it often brings more 'lust'
and the lust brings de-facto
The great lows'!!

unable to find
the 'Einsteinien' theory
which can encampass
the whole scenario
which often changes
like a melting & flowing lava!

I get the heat stroke
right at my heart

hope for the elixir

is it that
the elixir
is the trap itself

i find no reply
but soul says
you have to do it!!

day and night
i struggle thro' the environs
and keep intact
my whole know-how!

as i go deep
i come with more shallows
of my thoughts
of my capabilities

and the realities around!!

i do wonder
is it the airy world
Nature is too contrained
to adapt for me

i vie
with a rejuvenated vengeance
at the glimpse of my Love!!

She vanishes in the thin layers
i struggle hard to keep a touch

and console
her absence
it will bring a new start

of her love
and hope
the mirage of reality
it'll combine
to bring
another shower of elixir

But soul
it becomes scary

it asks too often
is it possible
to rely upon
your new found elixir

i keep mum
and wait
till my Love!
brings me another solace!!!!!!!
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, mallika sherawat, shipra.v, pu chd india

INFLORESCENCE..CONTD

She has not promised me
rose gardens
i often talk to my love!
you're an exotic fairy love!
and
i'm a hardy
neuro-psychiatric love!
She laughs so absorbing
i forget my pains
and the gains too!
her abscence
it's a vacuum
but i've become used to!

i enjoy the beauties around
vainful may be consequences
but i've learned the process itself!
my heart often opines!
is'nt too mechanical
i accept
but forget, the other moment!

i know this is my inforescence!!

source inspriation : neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra.v, pu chd india

BUBBLES..CONTD

I lose contact
with my heart
too often

wanderer spirit of mine
finds you

i know
it's another mirage

i have negotiated
till date

my soul
a complacent creature
but me
too hostile

i thrive
on your thoughts
may be
too vainful


i've learnt
to traverse
the vacuum

too magnetic
the lows and the highs
it tosses my soul

i visualize
the sandy arid soils
and see
many like me
source inspiration: mallika, shipra, pu chd india

I KNOW HER I KNOW HER NOT

i am too stupid at my nerves
she stays at my arm's length
and me a damn introvert
find a moments for hierchical model of conflicts
just to earn my pennies

and see love!
i have read the horrible depths of market economy
it says
salary isn't the everlasting boost for the productivity

i know and i forget
i see you
at the mercy of airs and the winds
a chance flattening of my heart

i equate your beauty
you see love!
beauty of Nature
it simply abounds around the environs
where i struggle day and night
to find
a meaningful existence
of mine
and yours

but i still
remains
the stupid introvert

source inspiration: neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra.v, cao office mod new delhi, pu chd india

IGNORANT BEAUTY

i often get the chance encounter with slide down.
look for some way out to find
my hearts around

i know this may be a default value for the difficult hearts.
and thus goes the ways and means of live enviorns around.

my heart never stops
pulsating with another set of storms
it pulls me and i again look for a feasible way out as if some eternal source of elixir has come running for me.

i know its too bubbly
but how does it matter
you see! love
bubbles are all-around
of your beauty
i know
we are too scary of the ignorance
but how it does matter
acceptance gives another chance
for your
nanonic love

INFLORESCENCE....CONTD

She was waiting outside
as i came out off my palacious office

me a damn lazy guy
eve hrs i am care free wanderer
looking for my shadow love
i know she is too whimsical
and i love to love her unbridled affiliations

i didn't notice her presence
came direct beneath a tree
i often write about its beauty

this time it was not showering
its inflorescence
i stopped for a moment
looked deep into the twigs
it were smiling with a hidden surprise.

i couldn't make it out
A flower came crushing into my eyes
i held it gently
wanted to say something!
but!
it took its chance first!
Hei!
you're missing one!
i wasn't sure: what it meant?
it didn't say further!

i left the environs
but my steps felt stuck!
my heart!
hei!
something amiss!

I looked around!
beside security people, a glowing beauty smiled straight into my eyes!

i yelled! hei! you!

She waved her silvery arms!
ran to me!
she didn't hesitate to hug me for a real long!

i noticed, guards did enjoy the romantic live scene! it's a rare of the rarest chance for all-around.

Why damn! you come so late out of your room!' she fumed with exhuberating warmth.
i said nothing but nodded in acceptance!
She was not alone! and i was a bit uncomfortable to see her scintillating beautiful friend! she wore jeans supported by a glowing top but with covered face. Ofcourse, she chose a very heart felt choice of the clothes.
she did introduce her: she is my friend.

i said : hello! and the reply was too penetrating touching and euphoric>hei! she responded back!

we the trio started!
but i didn't know: where to go!
my twister love is always naughty at her nerves! i know she can afford to do! What she pleases!
but i was a bit formal>this time. A live friend was accompanying a ghost love!!

After a few moments, we crossed another beautiful tree. my attention was focussed on its twigs.

Anything special Love! my twister asked!

No! not much!
you see! this is a special tree>we generally call it "Dalchini"! it's stem is aromatic and we use the upper strips for flavouring our tea, rice,dishes,and ofcourse, for medicines.

my twister interrupted: Bullshit: we haven't come to listen to your damn botany.'

No love! that's not what i really mean. i'm only visualizing the content of beauty.

my twister said: Oh' I see you are analysing beauty in economic terms!> i said may be.

What may be?: she asked back!

but Love! you see i'm also focussed at its inflorescence!

Oh' I see!>but it's not that catchy! you see!!
yeh! ofcourse!!
But Why so Love!! she now felt a bit interested.
i cut short my philosophy of sciences and said: it's a chain of variation,selectivity and survival of fittest.
Oh' I see! she said in a deep voice as if she knows a hell of bio.

silence prevailed.

But why that inflorescence is not that catchy! she asked like a kid!

i didn't know how to satiate her quest to know further.

we were crossing Vijay Chowk by this time.
she said: its too beautiful Love!
i quipped what!
you see all-around!! she was explanatory at her tone!
but her friend was not participating!>she did look like enjoying our converse!!

Do you remember you promised me to come with Mallika!! i suddenly interrupted the silence.

She smiled and smiled!!
i wondered a lot but still unable to get touch of her smile!!

she suddenly started drifting with her friend!!

i wondered at the scene in a disbelief> how come a bio-unit and a ghost fit together ignoring all Newtonians laws of gravity+motion.

She waived her finger towards the tree and replied: you know inflorescence is too beautiful always:>she smiled and her smile turned into a ghost laughter.

i saw she and her friend slowly disappearing into the deep blue sky!

till date i leave my office late as usual and cross the same tree: winds blow their sweet tunes with fresh mild penetrating frag of the inflorescence. And i decipher her smile.

was it Mallika but why she didn't say anything!!

Is it a part of my inflorescence:

May be : my soul is looking for a reply:::::
source inspiration: mallika (Bollywodian exotic beauty Love,),shipra.v; cao office ministry of defence, vijay chowk environs, puc chd india

INFLOURESCENCE..contd

as the time traverse
with its own instincts
i find
new relevance
at the stroke of hr

my words epitomize my love

i struggle
to write
a beauty
and my pen
it wonders
at the relevance itself

i tell
look! my little companion
it's the way:
you're to live!

it says
it's too much devoid of
a live love!

It's a stone or a vacuum!!

i console myself and my pen too

Let it be another moment
Love is a great force
you're to surf thro'

may be an endless
quest to find
yourself
source inspiration: neha c'.s space, mallika, shipra, pu chd india

LOVE TRAP

every other day
i lose a contact with reality
and gets trapped in the twister
of whys'

i try hard to find a niche

i land in swamp and marshy lands
i go deeper as i struggle hard

moments are there
i curse my addiction of your love

may be an excuse
of my docile nerves
or a cesspool of my inabilities

i find more excuses to survive

as i survive
i find more nuances
to negotiate
but
it only completes the cycle
i find where i started from

this day
i asked my beauties
to say
if it's beyond my nerves
to find a niche

they laughed a lot
i tried to enjoy their light mood

but they seemed to say
a lot
i still make the sequences
in line

i asked again
this time
they appear
a bit more involved

and say
love!
come!
stay with us
we have a lot
you're aspiring for

source inspiration: expanse of vijay chowk, mallika, shipra, pu chd india

bubbles

your and mine
unknown frontiers

i traves with heart
to reach
the hauty heights

slide down
its a part of
my and your world

i ignore the consequences
its always there
when i see
into my heart

my strong and flip
corners
and early morning
it's a fresh challenge

i've been a used to
ephimeral around

that's probably
weakest and strongest
forces
of me any your

i know this
prevalent alaround
but i've come to know
at your
being around

it may be too airy
and
i've been used to
remain aloft

source: mallika, shipra,pu chd india

SLIDE DOWN.contd

i often get stirred
by the horror of slide down
its a fact
but my heart
it says
better shut up

i know
its too scary of the realities around

it says
better
let me remain
in my world
of hallucinations
i'm comfortable

as there is no fear of slide down
and euphoria runs the roost

i know
its not a default value
but
a heart can't be ignored
whether its mine
or of my love

the realities surmount

but heart retorts
i know
your net addiction
it's a part of the escape instinct
from the realities around
and why you ask me
to come off your hallucinations

i have no reply

but calm is too exotic
and i try my best
to achieve
a wristful

i know its omniprsent gradient
but
probably
its too exotic
to negotiate the realities

and that's why
i ensconce my soul
in my univ love
source inspiration: mallika,shipra,pu chd, rajpath india

YOU IN MY UNIV

You have come
to glamourize my love
of my univ

to shade the sun
to enlighten the dark

to enthuse the low
to enlighten the high

my univ
the life itself
and
your heart
epitomize
in its full streams

to find a meaning
for the hauty souls
to give a meaning
to the naughty souls

to give an interlocution

to fight the senescence
to sprout the love
in hardy hearts

to combine
the trio
heart soul and mind

and my love
of romance
of Nature

written for mallika, shipra,pu chd india

LOVE IS COMPLETE IN ITSELF

This time
when you find
a spare time

we'll go somewhere

a place of our desires

to come off
our vacuum

to find a meaning

it's difficult
to negotiate
and find

but have you read
the geeta of lord krishna

'I'm there..
in vacuum'

when your heart
will pulsate
to resonate
with me
I'll come

may be an exotic beauty

around you
within you

but I'm not to say

whether
you'll find me
in your existentials

I know
I've my limitations

source inspiration: mallika,shipra, pu chd india

INFLORESCENCE

this day
normal crunch
i've become used to

my office table
with a local newspaper
any your gossip

well
i know this is not
my cup of tea

i read
only a few lines
folded the paper till it was time to leave

cloudy winds
remind a windy chill ahead
and the romance of Nature lit large
v.i.p honking and your glamour
do say a lot
of the present

and i avoid
the knotty thins

just a few steps
off my office
my thoughts got interrupted
with a shower of inflorescence ( of acacia royalana)

dark glistering yellow
globose and mild scent
but too many
making a shower of love
like your hair

storms of thoughts
i stopped my steps
looked a little deeper

my univ showered upon me
its love with glamorous arms enfolding around my face
and soul too

i leave the scenario of beauty
reason is simple
security rules have no scope

i cross the boat club
with a thoughtful heart
brain too

waters wore the inforescence
the blanket of a person
of haryana chills gives me a more
scope to wander upon

my heart said
love!
stay for a few more moments

and me
hardly listens
to this spoilt chap

source inspiration: mallika, shipra, pu chd india

SHE SENT ME POPCORNS

Love! i'm in hurry :but my insane heart
its not ready to take
the take off

my brain
its a whirly nuisance
and me
know a little
whom to
rely

i know
time is fast
but
my litte nerves
hooked to
the nanones
coming from
the exteriors
of unknown

my hallucinated heart
and scientific brain
live hand and hand
but quirel to often

me a chap
of undefined nerves
fail to resolve
whom to say

i appease my heart
and
this einsteinien brain
will come along
i'm sure

as i have received
your popcorns
SOURce: inspiration: my running time, mallika sherawat,shipra.v,neha c'.s space, kan, pu chd india

POPCORN SYNDROME

Love
i've seen thro'
my books
but the deepest thrive
fetched me
more insecure

i leave my work place
every eve
with a hope
my bullshit brain
will cooperate

it does
thro' the environs of vijay chowk

may be
my beauty is let large
all around

i talk to my friends
they look too smart
too penetrating

i ask
with docile nerves

hei!
what's special
with you
around you

they take a lot
before
smile back

i decipher
their smile
till i reach
my home

and the thoughts
vanish
like bubbles
of my dephth of know how

i search for solutions
and remember your popcorns

source inspiration: mallika sherawat, shipra.v,neha c'.s space, pu chd india